I struggle with regular days of low energy. Days where I get stuck in my own head, where I […]

I struggle with regular days of low energy. Days where I get stuck in my own head, where I get lost and embroiled in my own emotions and lose perspective of my own larger vision. On one such particular Sunday, I came across the following photo on a friend’s Instagram page.

The artist is Ymke Hemminga and the line reads: It was only after his thoughts grew wings that sadness became less flattering. After reading it, something in me switched, and I was able to shake off the funk and find my momentum again. Out of nowhere, these ideas poured out of me, of things that I wanted to do – a list of things that I feel pulled to do, and I’m sharing them here in public as a way of holding myself accountable to do them. It’s also about acknowledging the moments of vulnerability. I’ve realised that it’s very easy for me to share the moments of success, but a lot harder for me to share the moments of struggle and feeling vulnerable. And that’s really where the learning lies…

And so, the list:
– write about the moths in the bathroom
– write for the sake of writing, not to publish a book or win an award
– write to find peace again
– write to find the softness again
– write to release the sadness again
– write the story burning a whole in me
– start listening to HER
– write a chilren’s book about the little girl who could listen so well to everyone but herself
– go to Simonskloof for at least a week, at best two weeks, and find my body’s own sleep rhythm again. write.read.eat.walk.sleep.repeat
– write books for the 4-year-old in me…stories that speak to her heart, that help her heal
– let go of the past
– let go of what didn’t work out
– put down the guilt of not doing
– embrace the joy of doing what I am called to do
– find the joy of service again, OR find it for the first time, the joy of truly serving out of love for others, not out of a need to be loved
– be courageous. everyday. in small ways
– cry. whenever the tears come. and release the shame of crying
– allow myself to be wrong. embrace this
– be radically honest. everyday
– walk in the rain

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