I have watched this weekend how words have enabled silence. I have seen and felt how words have returned […]
I have watched this weekend how words have enabled silence. I have seen and felt how words have returned people to the silence within their hearts, to the stillness that rests deep within them – that stillness from which we are all born, and to which we all will return.
On Friday, in the icy cold winter air of a Stellenbosch night, I stood behind a mic at Amazink Eatery in Kayamandi. The event was the Stellenbosch Literary Project’s Inzync Poetry Sessions. Two spotlights cast the audience in shadow before me, which is usually disconcerting, as I prefer to see the audience as I engage with them. But I continued and made eye contact with those in the front rows I could see. I spoke, let my words spill over and around the floor.
The privilege of standing behind a mic and sharing my words has humbled me each time. But this night was different. I was profoundly moved by what took place in the audience. At one stage the entire room fell silent, and I could feel that silence in me – the silence of resting, of knowing who we truly are, the silence that holds no words and no words can do justice to. It opened something in me – the kind of opening that can never be filled or closed again. And after I was finished, I thought: ‘This is why I am here’.
I have always known that words have the power to draw us deeper into ourselves. Words have the power to connect us to our own voice, to our own desires and to that deep silence that all our inner-knowing comes from. I am humbled and moved to tears that I have had the opportunity to live out this belief.
Thank you to the audience for your listening. Something has changed in me forever. Something I cannot name. Something I can only now live out every day that I am here. Because it is so vast and so deeply rooted within me that I cannot ignore. That was only possible because of other people. Even in our comfortable aloneness and solitude we are all connected. It is this connectedness that unlocks the parts of ourselves we need to free in order to live out our dreams…
I am so deeply grateful to all the people in my life who continually unlock new parts in me.
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