May 1st, 2014 marked two years since I started working as a poet full-time. I celebrated by running the […]
May 1st, 2014 marked two years since I started working as a poet full-time. I celebrated by running the Safari Half Marathon and then spending the rest of the day recovering after the race. Over the past few days I’ve been thinking about what two years means: how many performances, invoices, workshops, meetings, how many hours of writing, how many poems? I haven’t been keeping track of these things so I wasn’t able to put figures next to them. I wish I had, and I’m considering doing so going forward.
It’s taken the past two years to become absolutely clear about what it is that I do, and also about the way in which I want to do it. Two years to refine my vision and what I’m willing to compromise and not compromise, sacrifice and not sacrifice in order to do so. And what I’ve learnt is this: everything that has happened in the past two years – the people I’ve met, the performances I’ve been privileged to give, the places I’ve visited through my work, the workshops I’ve run and everything I’ve learnt through the process, is the direct result of my choice to commit my life to being a poet. The path I took wasn’t laid out before I started. And the one I initially planned has changed considerably. Most of the time, I didn’t know how I was going to achieve certain goals or make other projects happen. It didn’t matter – the how became clear as I was doing it. And that has been the biggest lesson for me these past two years: show up, walk and trust. Trust in both my abilities and that there is a greater creative force at work, helping me along.
So as the winter chill creeps even deeper into our bones here in the Southern Hemisphere, my question to you this May is: what path would you begin creating, if you found the courage to start walking today?
Wishing you a month filled with warm hugs, warm blankets and hot chocolate!
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